Even If It Leads Nowhere

I've made up my mind

Don't need to think it over

If I'm wrong, I am right

Don't need to look no further

This ain't lust

I know this is love but

If I tell the world

I'll never say enough

Cause it was not said to you

And that's exactly what I need to do

If I'm in love with you

Should I give up?

Or should I keep on chasing pavements

Even if it leads nowhere?

Or would it be a waste

Even if I knew my place

Should I leave it there?

Should I give up?

Or should I keep on chasing pavements

Entah Mengapa Engkau Yang Aku Cinta

Tak semua kau rancang akan berlaku

Mungkin nasib tak menyebelahi aku

Entah mengapa engkau yang aku cinta

Mungkin lebih baik kau ku lepas saja

Ini tidak adil tidak adil baginya

Ini tidak adil tidak adil bagikuIni tidak adil

Untuk engkau bertanya jika ku mencintaimu juga

Tidak adil tidak adil baginya

Kau tak pernah cuba memahami aku

Cinta kau ucap tak pernah engkau tunjuk

Dan bila tiba saat ku kehilangan

Beban yang tak pernah cuba kau ringankan

Kau bukan milikku

Dan aku memang penakut

Mengakui cinta kepadamu

Seribu kali ku cuba ucapkan

Bila bersamamu

Kau bukan milikku

Dan engkau pun tahu

Kau bukan milikku

No Need To Wonder What's Been On My Mind

Been up all night staring at you

Wondering what's on your mind

I've been this way with so many before

But this feels like the first time

You want the sunrise to go back to bed

I want to make you laugh

Mess up my bed with me

Kick off the covers, I'm waiting

Every word you say

I think I should write down

Don't want to forget come daylight

Happy to lay here

Just happy to be here

I'm happy to know you

Play me a song

Your newest one

Please leave your taste on my tongue

Paperweight on my back

Cover me like a blanket

And no need to worry

That's wasting time

And no need to wonder what's on my mind

It's you

And I give up

I let you win

You win cause I'm not counting

You made it back

To sleep again

Wonder what you're dreaming

Perfection Of Your Face, Slows Me Down

You push me

I don't have the strength to

Resist or control you

Take me down, take me down

You hurt me

But do I deserve this?

You make me so nervous

Calm me down, calm me down

Wake you up

In the middle of the night to say

I will never walk away again

I'm never gonna leave this bed

So come here

And never leave this place

Perfection of your face

Slows me down, slows me down

So fall down

I need you to trust me

Go easy, don't rush me

Help me out, why don't you help me out?

So you say "Go, it isn't working"

And I say "No, it isn't perfect"

So I stay instead

I'm never gonna leave this bed

Take it, take it all

Take all that I have

I'd give it all away just to get you back

And fake it, fake it all

Take what I can get

And I can slow it out

Can you hear me yet

Try to stay awake but you can't forget

A comment from a youtube fan : "If I had Adam Levine in my bed, I would also NEVER leave this bed!". You have my full support.

I Don't Have The Strength To Stay Away

You make it hard to breathe

With every step you take closer to me

I am cold with every touch

And I can't fall asleep

I can't stand to be without you

Now that you've figured out who I am

I can't stand to look into your eyes

Now that I realize

You make me weak

You make me love

You make me want to scream your name at the top of my lungs

You make me shake

You rescue me

But most of all you make me

Complete

I am drawing pictures in your hand

And being away from you is something I can't stand

I feel your breath upon my cheek

You're my everything and my heart is yours to keep

I don't have the strength to stay away

Because I am falling more in love with you

Each and everyday

I can't stand to not be by your side

Now that I realize

You make me weak

You make me love

You know I'll stay with you forever

But that's not enough

I'm Not In It To Win It, I'm In It For You

While everybody else is getting out of bed

I'm usually getting in it

I'm not in it to win it

And there's a thousand ways you can skin it

My feet have been on the floor

Flat like an idle singer

Remember winger

I digress

I confess you are the best thing in my life

But I'm afraid when I hear stories

About a husband and wife

There's no happy endings

No Henry Lee

But you are the greatest thing about me

If it's love

And we decide that it's forever

No one else could do it better

If it's love

And we're two birds of a feather

Then the rest is just whenever

And if I'm addicted to loving you

And you're addicted to my love too

We can be them two birds of a feather

That flock together

Love, love

Got to have something to keep us together

Love, Love

That's enough for me

Took a loan on a house I own

Can't be a queen bee without a bee throne

I wanna buy ya everything

Except cologne

'cause it's poison

We can travel to Spain where the rain falls

Mainly on the plain side and sing

'cause it is we can laugh we can sing

Have ten kids and give them everything

Hold our cell phones up in the air

And just be glad we made it here alive

On a spinning ball in the middle of space

I love you from your toes to your face

You can move in

I won't ask where you've been

'cause everybody has a past

When we're older

We'll do it all over again

When everybody else is getting out of bed

I'm usually getting in it

I'm not in it to win it

I'm in it for you

Mad Woman, Bad Woman

Easy come, easy go

That's just how you live

Take, take, take it all

But you never give

Should've known you was trouble

From the first kiss

Had your eyes wide open

Why were they open?

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash

You tossed it in the trash, you did

To give me all your love is all I ever asked, 'cause

What you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya

Throw my hand on a blade for ya

I'd jump in front of a train for ya

You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all of this pain

Take a bullet straight through my brain

Yes, I would die for ya, baby

But you won't do the same

Black, black, black and blue, beat me 'til I'm numb

Tell the devil I said "hey" when you get back to where you're from

Mad woman, bad woman, that's just what you are

Yeah, you'll smile in my face then rip the brakes out my car

If my body was on fire,

You'd watch me burn down in flames.

You said you loved me, you're a liar, 'cause you never, ever, EVER did, baby

But, darling

I'd still catch a grenade for ya

Throw my hand on a blade for ya

I'd jump in front of a train for ya

You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all of this pain

Take a bullet straight through my brain

Yes, I would die for ya, baby

But you won't do the same

You Got Me Wrapped Around Your Finger

If you, if you could return

Don’t let it burn, don’t let it fade

I’m sure I’m not being rude

But it’s just your attitude

It’s tearing me apart

It’s ruining everything

And I swore, I swore I would be true

And honey so did you

So why were you holding her hand

Is that the way we stand

Were you lying all the time

Was it just a game to you

But I’m in so deep

You know I’m such a fool for you

You got me wrapped around your finger

Do you have to let it linger

Do you have to, do you have to

Do you have to let it linger

Oh, I thought the world of you

I thought nothing could go wrong

But I was wrong

I was wrong

If you, if you could get by

Trying not to lie

Things wouldn’t be so confused

And I wouldn’t feel so used

But you always really knew

I just wanna be with you

And I’m in so deep

You know I’m such a fool for you

You got me wrapped around your finger

Do you have to let it linger

Do you have to, do you have to

Do you have to let it linger

I had this horrible dream last night. As if I don't have enough trust issues already.

And I'm In Love

You, by the light

Is the greatest find

In a world full of wrong

You're the thing that's right

Finally made it through the lonely

To the other side

And this could be good

It's already better than that

And nothing's worse

Than knowing you're holding back

I only said it 'cause I mean it

I only mean 'cause it's true

So don't you doubt what I've been dreaming

'Cause it fills me up and holds me close whenever I'm without you

You set it again, my heart's in motion

Every word feels like a shooting star

I'm at the edge of my emotions

Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love

And I'm terrified

For the first time and the last time

In my only life

Flightless Bird

When I get married, I want my wedding video to be made with this song.

Nothing Can Take Me Away From My Guy

Nothing you can say can take me away from my guy
Nothing you could do cause I'm stuck like glue to my guy
I'm sticking to my guy like a stamp to a letter
Like birds of a feather we stick together
I'm telling you from the start
I can't be torn apart from my guy

No muscle bound man could take my hand from my guy
No handsome face could ever take the place of my guy
He may not be a movie star but when it comes to being happy, we are
There's not a man today who can take me away from my guy

Happy birthday, daling.

I'm All Black And White Inside

Just Like Gravity

I know that you still haven't found you

And when I wanna stand on my own too

Suddenly you start to show signs of what is possible

Then you're back to your ways and I let me down

Tell me why I keep trying to stay around

When all my family

They keep telling me, be through with you

And I know deep down I'm calling time on you, on you

Every time I'm ready to leave

I seem to be

Pulling in the wrong direction

Diving in with no protection

And you can't keep steering me wrong

Oh gravity

Pulling me back, pulling me in

Why you pulling me back, pulling me in

Just like gravity

Nothing Compares To You

The next time I go karaoke, I'm singing this song.

You Had A Hold On Me Right From The Start

I'm currently listening to this song, a remake version from Glee. Really, if you're not into watching Glee, you don't know what you're missing.

Today, 15th May 2010, is our 2 years and 6 months anniversary. But Asrul is really unwell. He's got a high fever, it's been 3 days now. He went to the clinic yesterday and the doctor took some blood samples. If I have my car now, I'd drive over to his place and spoon feed him some McDonald's chicken porridge and Oreo McFlurry. But as it is, I'm stuck here in college, sleeping and studying. He only texted me twice today and I called him 3 times. He's been sleeping the rest of the day.

We were never big on anniversaries. I remember our first year anniversary at KLCC, we fought and I think it was the first time he gave in to me. Our first year was a mess, mostly because he was such a jerk. But, given time, he opened himself up to me and he's not the same person I knew him to be. Now it's my turn to make a 360 change.

We both can't remember what we did for our 2nd year anniversary. I don't think we celebrated at all. Like I said, it's not a big deal for us, just so long as we remember and give each other anniversary wishes.

This year, however, we decided that we will celebrate our 3rd year together, with gifts and a special dinner and all that romance. Probably because it has been difficult this year and I want us to celebrate our efforts in staying strong for each other.

I already have so many things planned out in my head for his birthday and our anniversary.

To my favorite girlfriends: Please give him some advice on gifts. I think it is so easy to shop for a girl as compared to shopping gifts for men but somehow, men have no idea what to buy for girls. So I'm hoping you girls can give him some insight as to what I like, accompany him shopping if you have to. I fully give my permission to date my boyfriend.

Though Love Sometimes Hurts, I Still Put You First

This ain't the honeymoon

Past the infatuation phase

Right in the thick of love

At times we get sick of love

It seems like we argue everyday

I know I misbehaved

And you made your mistakes

And we both still got room left to grow

And though love sometimes hurts

I still put you first

And we'll make this thing work

But I think we should take it slow

We're just ordinary people

We don't know which way to go

Cause we're ordinary people

Maybe we should take it slow

This ain't a movie no

No fairy tale conclusion ya'll

It gets more confusing everyday

Sometimes it's heaven sent

Then we head back to hell again

We kiss then we make up on the way

I hang up, you call

We rise and we fall

And we feel like just walking away

As our love advances

We take second chances

Though it's not a fantasy

I still want you to stay

Take it slow

Maybe we'll live and learn

Maybe we'll crash and burn

Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave

maybe you'll return

Maybe another fight

Maybe we won't survive

But maybe we'll grow

If I Ask Nice, Can I Take You Home With Me?

I am totally loving this song! Yes, he did say Kuala Lumpur. And she's Malaysian, by the way.

There's No Real Love In You

You're automatic
And your heart's like an engine
I die with every beat
You're automatic
And your voice is electric
Why do I still believe?

It's automatic
Everywhere in your letter
A lie that makes me bleed
It's automatic
When you say things get better
But they never

There's no real love in you
Why do I keep loving you

It's automatic
Counting cars on a crossroads
They come and go like you
It's automatic
Watching faces I don't know
Erase the face of you

It's automatic, systematic
So traumatic, you're automatic

Each step you make
Each breath you take
Your heart, your soul
Remote-controlled
This life is so sick
You're automatic to me

There's no real love in you.

Ku Terlupa Kau Terluka

Aku memang bersalah
Selalu saja mengabaikan mu
Dan tapi dah ku sedari
Segala perit kau lalui
Ku terlupa kau terluka

Dan memang selalu
Aku bersalah
Selalu saja mengabaikan mu
Meninggalkan mu
Dan tetapi itulah aku sedari
Segala perit yang kau lalui
Kerna diriku yang terus hanyut

Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu
Fahamilah ku tak mampu terus tanpa kamu
Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila tiada mengganti
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

The Angel Heaven Let Me Think Was You

I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make a sound

You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait
Tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say

That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance
Take a fall, take a shot for you
I need you like a heart needs a beat
It's nothing new

I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize



He didn't even say he's sorry, but then again, I didn't give him the chance to. Because I know there is no way I could ever forgive him. I've never felt so betrayed in my life.

Don't get me wrong. The only feelings I have left for him is hate.

I asked God for strength
He gave me difficulties to make me strong.

I asked God for wisdom
He gave me problems to solve.

He was my problem, he gave me difficulties, and I think now I have gained strength and wisdom. But no, I'm not gonna thank him. (Ish, every time I even think of him, so many curse words go through my head, I think I must be maturing now that I am able to stop myself from screaming them out at him).

I thank God for waking me up. For letting me see things the way they actually are, and not the way I wanted things to be. It's true, you know, that people see what they want to see. If you find a reason to hate someone, you're likely to find it. The same way that I looked for reasons to like him, and I found them.

Let this end here. I don't ever want to go back there again. Never ever ever.

What goes around, comes around, but I hope it hits you harder.